Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Value your friends: they are precious!

Few months back, I dint knew the meaning of friends. I used to think that friends are like many other strangers whom we meet, have fun with and then, they just leave and go away and then, we meet new people and the process gets repeated again… “Friends are life”, “friends are the best thing which can happen in your life” and blah blah… these things had no meaning in my life, absolutely no meaning.
And then, I changed my job and came to a new office. Even then I thought that I will make new friends easily. And the days started passing by… a week, 15 days, a month but I wasn’t able to make such friends, such which I had in my previous company: my gang… all my buddies…
And then I started missing them, missing them terribly. Then gradually I understood the importance of friends, what they mean in one’s life! I understood that its just not possible to make friends anywhere, anytime! I actually understood the difference between acquaintances and friends. I started having a strong urge to meet them daily, to see them, to talk to them, to go out with them and to have all the fun which we used to have.
And even after 3 months in this new place, I am not able to make such friends, such a gang.
Friends are special because they love you, they care for you and whenever you need, they are there for you… They make you feel special; they make you feel as if they need you always, they make you feel important which nobody else in world can! They make you feel as if their world is incomplete without you. They take care of your each and every happiness. They know how to make you smile when you are sad, they know how to make you happy when you are depressed, they make you eat when you don’t feel like, they love you selflessly, they love you like anything!
And this is the difference between acquaintances and friends. For an acquaintance, even you are an acquaintance! Nothing more than that. They will talk to you but will surely not bother about your happiness! They will accompany you for lunch/dinner but will not bother whether you ate or not. They will ask you the reason if they see you depressed but will surely not bother to make you smile and happy.  
Friends are not made manually, they get made automatically! Believe me, you can become friends with somebody without any efforts and cannot become friends with somebody even after trying hard!
That’s the difference! Yes, friendship is precious and believe me no relationship in the world as strong as friendship. Its a relationship in which there are no expectations, there are no selfish motives, there are no self-centered objectives and yes, there are no egos! There is just.... and just love:) So, if you have true friends, you are lucky! Value them. Please do not take them for granted and do not hurt them!

Value your friends, they mean a lot…

Meaningless things in this meaningful world!!

Yesterday evening my mood was really off and I was completely pissed off due to some office things, and also because i was missing my gang, my friends! I really dint felt like going back home so I decided to stop at tankband (its a lake in hyd) on the way. I never liked that place much but there was no other option. So, I thought will stand there alone for sometime, will relax myself and then will go home. Because if I would have gone back home with my mood off, I wouldnt have been able to hide it from my mom and then she would have become too much worried! Obviously there are things which are so difficult to explain to moms and for moms to understand! And this is among those things.  How to tell her that this stress is something we have to bear everyday whether we like it or not and it’s a part and reality of our lives!

Anyways, I have been living in this city from last 5 years, have been seeing this same tankbund lake for these whole 5 years but had never ever observed how beautiful it is! Infact I used to hate the stink, the green algae and many other things about it. Never ever thought that it could be so amazing… Yesterday for the first time I realized this and immediately fell in love with it! It was calm, quiet! Off course not in literal terms as there is a main road just next to Tankbund and it is one of the busiest roads in Hyderabad.  
But still I felt a sort of serenity, calmness, a stillness and a kind of self composure there, with a stretched bed of water in front of my eyes and a busy road full of cars behind me! It was so awesome that I immediately felt relaxed in just 10 mins, with that cold breeze blowing away my hair, with that lovely view. I could see the dim lights in the buildings on the other side of tankbund. I felt like they all were making some abstract image or some alphabet. It was a kind of lights puzzle in front of me. I was trying to figure out some meaningful word out of those lights! Was trying to join the lights in my mind to make something meaningful, in the same way as used to do with the stars when I was small! I still remember making a spoon, a teddy bear, ‘A’ alphabet and God knows how many things with stars! Same thing I was doing with this lights puzzle. Was trying to figure out a significant thing out of those dim lights. But then realized that in this meaningful world, where everything (including relationships) and everybody exists for some or the other meaning, there are few things which are meaningless and you should just leave them like that! Giving meaning to those things can really distort them completely! That lights puzzle in front of my eyes was one of those meaning less things which had absolutely no meaning, no significance, nothing! But still I loved it, still my eyes loved to play with it! So I stopped finding out any meaningful thing in that and accepted it as it was: meaningless! My eyes were admiring the view of it and that was enough for me:)
I loved standing there, just loved it… Though there was so much noise behind me of the passing by vehicles. Guess there was not a single second when there was no noise but believe me, after few mins I just couldn’t hear anything apart from the sound of water. It was like as if my ears had installed a filter to block all the noise going inside them! My eyes just couldn’t see anything apart from the small tiny waves and the unsolved light puzzle:) It was like as if my eyes had narrowed down its binocular vision and had drawn a boundary around the area which it wanted to cover! And everything beyond that boundary became invisible to me!
The waves: they were so small and looked so tiny in front of the ocean waves. The waves in the tankbund looked like babies of the ocean waves. I smiled seeing them. They were so cute and alluring like a small baby. I felt like they were teasing me, they were chatting with me, they were trying to get my attention like small babies do. I got totally and completely engrossed in that moment.
Then my mind intervened as usual. It wanted to know that why can’t I live like this forever. Live with only smiling, without any stress, any pain, any tensions! I had no answer to it. What could I say: No I can’t because I do not have that option or because life is not meant to be calm, it has to be full of ups and downs because these ups and downs teach us so many things in life and this is what life is all about! Without them life would become boring, monotonous!
I stopped thinking. Thinking completely. I wanted to be happy, relaxed without any thoughts, without anyone! I kept on staring the cutie small baby waves and solving my lights puzzle till I realized that it was too late. It was around 8 and tankband was not a good place for a lady to stand alone because people start approaching you. Don’t know why a ‘normal’ lady, after 8 can’t stands alone at any place? Its weird but then it’s a fact so I decided to move on from there biding a bye and thanking all: the tankbund, the unsolved puzzle, to my cutipie waves, to the cold breeze! They made my day:) and promised them that I will be back, very soon!
I came back home relaxed and happy. Thanks to my decision of stopping at tankband…
Try to do something like this and then see how awesome and relaxed you will feel!

Memories reloaded : Lessons learnt!

I wrote this post on 15th morning! But could'nt post it that day as it was a mad day! So here it is:
Its morning and still my excitement is same! It has not reduced even a bit… Last night, I actually compelled myself to sleep! Why is it so hard to sleep when you are thrilled!
Today is a little special day for me because of many reasons! One yesterday we have finished 100 posts on our website! Yes, 100… I am so so happy about that… only we 4 know how much effort it has taken for us to reach here… Only we 4 know to what extent, we had to keep ourselves motivated to finish this remarkable number.
Second thing is I will be going to my old organization for a party tonight! This really means a lot to me… a lot. That too I will not be going as a part of that organization but as a part of their client! This is so superb… Leaving that company was one of the worst and most painful things that ever happened to me! I was and infact, I am in love with that organization. I worked there for 4 years and I worked there as if its my own company. Working in that organization was just not “doing a job” kind of thing for me. It was almost my life. I had given my whole and soul to every bit, to every inch of work I did there! Nobody can understand this love. But believe me, its true. I loved that company, the people out there… its not that I always had my best days there, even I had been through ups and downs in that organization like everybody but still, I loved it… loved each and every bit of it… loved the people there… loved everything about it. But I was wrong. It’s not good to get emotionally attached to any organization because whatever you do, for a organization you will just remain a mere employee! One person with power can destroy all you did in just few days… and nobody can dare to question him not even you! If you are emotionally attached to your work and company, you will surely feel a terrible and unbearable pain! So better is to work, and go home! My husband used to always explain me this but I never listened to him. Because everything was going on perfect till one fine day, that one powerful man came and spoiled everything! Everything! Probably he is somebody I hate like anything and can’t stand… But I know one day he is going to pay for what he did with me, what he did with many many others! For me, I am in a very good position, very happy, much better than the previous one! The only thing is I still miss the people, my gang… but there are many others who are still struggling! I feel sad for them. Wish I could help them!
I am very happy today as I will face him today! I will face him as his client… I wish I could expose him in front of everybody, expose his dirty politics which he does with everybody! But then i feel whos he for me, whos he in my life. Nothing! I will never be able to forget him, forgive him for what he did but will surely not allow it (by thinking about what happened) to spoil my days, my happiness further! Everything happens in life so that you can learn a lessonJ
But yes, I will not even stop waiting for the day when he will pay back for every wrong thing he did. I know somewhere he will have to face it…

I have my lesson learnt that work hard wherever you are, be honest with it, put your best to it! Because I believe that a person who cannot be honest to his work can never be honest to anybody and anything in this world! So work hard for those 8 hrs which you spend in your office! But do not make it your life, do not think that its your own company and please do not ignore your family for anything because for your family, you are precious and for an organisation, you are just another human!! Love yourself, love your family after all they are ones for whom you are workingJJJ
Anyways, for now I am not going to spoil my mood further! Waiting for the evening, waiting to see what happensJ

Thursday, July 14, 2011

My first blog: Confessions to be made...

Hello!! This is my first blog... Its not that I am new to writing but yes, i am new to blogging. As previously i used to write only for myself. But then i thought why not start writing a blog:) And so i am here! You must be thinking then who has written the 2 previous blogs? Well, they are written by my husband... he is an amazing writer! I am sure if have read them, then you will also have the same view about his writing. I really wanted him to continue writing but being in a job of 10-8, its quite difficult! I had mentioned about a confession in my blog's heading! It is that I am not at all a good writer, infact, I am really very bad at writing but still i just love it, i love to pen down my ideas, because i believe that i am like a bird and my thoughts: they are my wings- they take me high whenever I want to, they help me to dive in the sky whenever I wish to, they bring me back home when its night, they take me to a completely new place whenever I feel like! I am really like a bird who only trust one thing in life and they are my wings. I know till i have them with me, I am free, I can fly, I can fly high and higher and highest! And so i thought why not to put down the distances and destinations I covered with the help of my wings in a blog:))
So, while reading please and please do not focus on my grammar, on the choice of words etc etc. I wanted you guys to know this before reading anything because I really do not want you to judge me on my writing style! If you can then try to chase my thoughts and then see you will also start flying unknowingly... You will also have invisible wings which will take anywhere you want, anywhere and whenever!
I hope you guys will like it........