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Jealousy

I often hear people labeling Jealousy as a bad trait. I mean from childhood, we are being taught and fed about the huge difference between two kind of things. Yes, good things and bad things. Everything in this world is divided in just these 2 buckets: Good and bad! And generally Jealousy is being dumped into the later category. But is it really that bad? Now, you will very conviniently answer "it depends on the situation". Yes, true. It really depends on the circumstances and the situation where one feels jealous. But isnt it a normal human trait? Isnt it something that is wired into our hardware? The quantity depends on  individual to individual. But wouldnt you think about the other side of jealousy? You feel jealous when someone you love goes around with someone else or cares about someone too much or even if someone takes care of them. Yes, you feel jealous. Why in the world is that considered so wrong? It simply means you love the person so much that you just w

This is what we are...

I have 2 cute younger sisters. And as they are growing up, I am bound to notice so many similarities that we share. Actually, on widening my approach, I could see some or the other part of me in every girl I know. And I thought I am different! hahhh... Such an illusionary thought you had gal! Anyways, guess there is a set of qualities that every normal Indian girl inherits. There is a set of things that you will find all of us doing. Somewhere or the other, we all are same. Yes, we are! At teen age, you will find us extremely shy but also, audacious enough whenever required. You will find us clutching the books in our hands with a backpack, looking down and walking on the road quietly towards college. You will find us giggling and laughing with our group of friends. You will find a quest in us, a crave to see and feel the outer world. You will see the bright sparkles of our dreams in our eyes. You will find us dreaming about our bright future more often. You will find us locked

At peace with myself

Finally I am relaxed! Yep, was going through a very stupid phase of life. Actually I should say was going through a torturous phase. I am now, kind of out of it. At times, I feel is it my crazy brain that creates this hallucinations of "bad" phases? or these phases are a reality? I mean why in the world would my 'own' (hope so!) mind create such delusion to torture me? But anything is possible with me... I always describe myself as a very strong person who hates to reveal things going inside her mind, heart and life to the world. I am truly a champion in hiding all the thoughts and emotions behind my cute smile:) But still there are few devils in my life who can see beyond that smile!!! Its both a blessing and a curse. Blessing because I am lucky to have such caring people around me for whom I, my feelings and my emotions really matter. Curse because dude, they kill me/ torture me till the time I don't reveal the complete reason to them! And I hate to tell

Celebrate this thing called Life!

Sadness is...

So true!!!

Love...

'I love you', guess these three are most used words in any language, any day. Well, that's what I feel. But do we realize how deep are these 3 words. What is the meaning of them? What does that mean when you say "I love you" to someone. I feel its a commitment for life. By saying I love to someone, you are indirectly saying that you would be there with that person forever and for always. Well, I feel very strongly about these words and if I tell "I love you" to someone, I mean it. I love to tell you 'I love you', I love to do that again and again, I love it more, when you say me too, Yes, I love to tell you 'I love you', Let me tell you what it means when I say it, Well it means: I accept you for the person you are, I will stand by you even if you are far, Even through the worst of times, Even when you don't need me at times, It means: Loving you even when you are in an awful mood, Or tired to do the things that I want you to do, It

There is a vitality...

There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and will be lost.              ― Martha Graham

Every little piece

This one is again for that one person I love more than anybody else in this world: my husband:) Every little piece of me is in love with you, Every inch of my soul adores you, Every tiny bit of my heart worships you, Every minute thing in me admires you, I don't know why? I really don't know why? But I find you so irresistible, What I feel for you is beyond madness, That crazy look of yours, Is just enough to drag me to your thoughts, The wild sensation of your voice, Is just enough to drive me to another world, That untamed, raw energy of yours, Oh, It just makes so hard for me to stop, Your touch takes me to some other place, That is filled with ecstasy and happiness, You are the only one who can create, A fanatical keen desire within my senses, All I need is just you, To be there with my soul, 'Coz let me tell this again, That every little piece of me is in love with you ...

Love... the fatal trap!

Love is like an open cage, Where you are the one detained, But still you are unable to fly, And do you know the reason, why? You calmly bear all the pain, Drenched in the sorrow rain, Still you stay there in serene, Tied from those love chains, It takes a hold on you, It almost kills you everyday, Still you don't fly away, Do you know the reason, why? 'Coz love is a fatal trap, From which it is not easy to flee, Once you are caught in love's prison, Baby you just can't break free...

Storms....

Storms make trees take deeper roots                                                                                               - Dolly Parton

Making sadness fly

Sadness is but a wall between two gardens. --- Khalil Gibran There are times when you just feel so low in life. You feel a weird emptiness inside you somewhere. But then we somehow learn to get out of them, naturally and guess, that's why they say life is the best teacher. It teaches you everything automatically and in a very subtle way. At times, to get out of that depressing phase, that grief and sorrow, it takes a lot. I mean you really need to push yourself. But then at times, just very simple things can make you smile and forget your pains like an amazing combo of a cup of hot coffee and a book, a long drive with your fav song playing on full volume, being with your fav gang, having a nice haircut, wearing your fav dress and this list can really be never lasting. Life is full of ups and downs but then its us, who should become skilled at managing our course in a particular situation and also to comprehend and realize the best means to achieve that. Its only us who can

Who you are

Got this somewhere on Facebook today:) And thought to share it... Its b'ful...

Give back my wings

  I beg to the lord, I beg to this world, To give back my wings... That someone has stolen, For I am nothing without them... I am just another stone, With no feelings, and no emotions, I am just a piece of bones... And that is why, I ask this world To give back my wings, That have been stolen...

I feel so trapped

I feel so trapped, In the middle of a maze... My wings are broken, Got caught in a cage... My essence is rotten, My heart carries a rage... My soul is screaming, To set free of this plague...

Hug me tonight

Can you hug me tonight... Tonight... Hug me tight But wait... I don't want just a hug I need that special one The one that even hurts Pick me up... off the ground Make my feet sling in the air Till I get cramps in my tummy Spin me around... twist n turn Squeeze me hard and so tight Till I feel dozy and down Kiss me gently on these lips Leave me completely breathless Hold me so close and so tight That it leave butterflies in my stomach Tickle me very mildly and softly That leaves me full of giggling I want that special hug tonight Hug that is both wild and sweet

Come in my dreams... Hold my hands

Come in my dreams And hold my hands Look into my eyes And touch my soul Hold my hands and take me away Take me away With you somewhere Create me a new world World filled with beauty Come in my dreams In every dazzling night Hold my hands And take me away Again to the new world That you would create World that would be ours World where our love would blossom Hold my hands And take me away

All I seek for...

  In the middle of this  insanity, All I am seeking for is peace, I don't desire for any luxury, I do not yearn for any affluence, All I crave for is serenity... I don't have any longing for the huge cars, I don't wish for owning any sort of mansions, All I beg for is tranquility... I have no hunger left to achieve any  ambition, I don't aspire anymore to reach my destination, All I want is to have a fruitful journey... I don't wish to be a part of the chase, I don't want to run across in search of my aim, All I yearn for is just little time to spend with myself... In the middle of all this scuttle, All I am in quest of is silence, Silence that can take me to the world of solace...

Somewhere far away

Somewhere far away in the sunshine, lies my dreams... Somewhere hidden in my loneliness, lies my solace... Sometimes being  all alone, with myself is all I need... Sometimes watching the world, silently gives me peace... Sometimes a little thought, is enough to drift me away... Sometimes  dragging myself to oblivion, helps me seeing the hope's ray... Sometimes drowning in your thoughts, is enough to keep me alive... Sometimes going far away, from you is all that I desire... Sometimes, Somewhere far away, in that sky is all I wish to go... To shine like a bright star and, witnessing the world from the top... Lying there in peace forever, drowning in the oasis of serenity and happiness... 

Want to...

Want to open my eyes to an endless view, Want to meet the one, who resides beyond the blue sky, Want to dance to the music of a fluttering butterfly, Want to sing along with the sounds of those waves, Want to wake up in the lap of an old tree, Want to fly with the wedge in flight...

Sometimes...

Conjuring the devils

Got to watch The Conjuring last night and must say it is really one of the scariest movies I have ever seen!! Guess, scary is a word that is too tiny to be used to describe this movie. Its super frightening, terrifying! The horror scenes not only haunts you at night but they doesn't even leave you in the daytime. Believe me... I like the way all the usual fears related to supernatural things, that almost everyone face have been used in the movie: like we all, I guess at times get scared of thinking that somebody is behind us, watching us and ready to grab us... Ooopppssss... and the fear that somebody is there under the bed is one thing that bothers everyone:) And the one that somebody might pull your leg while sleeping and all that... The way these typical fears have been demonstrated in this movie is just mind blowing:) Many scenes can give you  goosebumps. So, beware while watching this movie. However, this post is really not about the movie review. Its about a thought that

Its you... who fill colors in my life

There are those weird days, When I feel sad and depressed, When the only color visible to me is blue , And you are the only one I look up to... There are those strange days, When I feel bored and gloomy, When the only color I can see is black , And you are the only one who can make everything exciting again... There are those bizarre days, When I just lose control over life, When the only color I can see is grey , Then you are the one who can bring me back on track... Then there are those happy days, When everything looks dazzling and bright, When the only color visible is red , And you are the only one I feel like sharing my happiness... Then there are those brand new days, When something new and thrilling happens, When the only color visible is white , You are the only one I feel like living those days with... Then there are those beautiful days, When all I see all around are smiles, When the only color visible to me is yellow , And you are the only one who

The first strand of greys

... And I almost got a heart attack this morning when I noticed those first strands of grey hair! Agree they are not the first ones but they are certainly the first prominent strands of grey hair, the sight of which almost took my breath away... Ouuucchhh... I looked at them and I just wanted to scream like those dramatic heroines in old movies "nahiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..." I remember Hema Malini doing that in some movie, while releasing her breath in a strange way! Anyways, back to my agony. So, I stood in front of the mirror, looking at my grey color strands and touching them with my finger tips... and touching them again and over again as if the grey color will get back to the color of youth by my touching! I so badly wish it could! I would have taken a day off from work and would have sat in front of the mirror and would have transformed all those strands with that stupid grey color back to black: the color of youth as I declared above! To my chagrin, there was n

I sin to find peace

Steeped in despair, Swathed in anxiety, Draped in anguish, I sin to find peace somewhere... Mired in morbidity, Adorned in dejection, Wrapped in sadness, I sin to find peace at some place... I sin... To clear these clouds of grief, To take me to the river of bliss, I sin... To snatch away all my squeamishness, To fill my soul with boldness, I sin... To whip away all my weaknesses irreversibly, To make my inner self audacious irrevocably, I sin... I do sin to find peace somewhere... That will make me strong and sturdy, To stand against this world, And to face them boldly...

I set my wings on fire

I set my wings on fire; When darkness takes over this earth, I set my wings on fire; When all the doors gets closed, I set my wings on fire; When everything is encircled by dire strait, I set my wings on fire; When life looks empty and bare, I set my wings on fire; When my heart gets ached, I do set my wings on fire; to fly me away, Away somewhere from this despair, Away to some far off place, To fairies and angel's palace, To the lands of love, To the planet of care, Somewhere far off, To a distant place, Away from all the pain and misery, To a place where love is in the air,a And happiness resides in its every corner...

I just wanna be the girl...

Wrote this one for my husband whom I love more than anything and who means everything to me: I hurt him, I give him pain but all I know is I can't live without him and nothing matters to me in this world more than him... He is the one who makes me feel special, who makes me feel out of this world by every single touch, whose smile can make me forget all the stress, whose words can take me to another amazing world, whose one look is enough to take away my breath, whose one smile can lift my feet off the ground, whose happiness is more than enough to spin me around, whose love is just enough to drive me crazy: I just wanna be the girl you talk about, The only one you couldn’t live without, The one about whom you say to this world She’s my baby, she's my girl... I just wanna be the girl you think about, The one that takes your breath away, The one with whom you want to spend all your nights and all your days... I just wanna be the girl you care about, The only one

I go round and round

Juggling my dreams in the sky, Spinning my happiness around, Lifting my feet above the ground, I go round and round till my breath last.. Playing hide and seek with the clouds, Talking incessantly with the glittering stars, Sharing all I have with the shining moon, I fly high and high till my wings are all worn out... Fluttering along with those b'ful butterflies, Laughing my heart out with those flowers, Gossiping with those chirping birds, I smile and smile till everything gets brighten up... These are my friends, They are ones for whom I care, They are the ones who make me smile, They are the ones who really care for what I love, They are the ones who can take me to miles...

Make your existence an act of rebellion!

I just and just loved this one!

Love...

All that I want

Love is all I have, You are all I want, Holding your hands, is all I crave for, Your lap is all, where I wanna rest, Your eyes are all, I wanna dive in, Your words are all, that I wanna hear, You are all I want, You are all I crave for, You are all my heart yearn for...

Come away with me...

Come away with me, and I will take you to the city of dreams... Come away with me, And I will give all that you need... Come away with me, And I will write you a lovely song... Come away with me, And I will give you all that you have been craving for... Come away with me, And I will sketch you a beautiful picture... Come away with me, And I will fill your life with colors... Come away with me, Holding my hand, Somewhere far I will take you, And I will never let you go...

And U.P continues to bleed...

Me and mom were having our general gossip session over phone, few days back. We were just generally talking about the social and political situation in U.P. BTW, don't get surprised, that's one of our favorite topics! We both love to talk about politics:) Anyways, so she told me about the situation that U.P is currently in: its messy, its chaotic and completely sad. Its not that this is something new. U.P had been in this messy situation from years now. That's what I was feeling surprised as in why Mom is cribbing about it this time. I mean I have grown up there and have been seeing that place in this poor situation since then. And I also thought and realized that people had actually stopped expecting anything from any new CM, whether it is Mayawati or Mulayam or anybody else for that matter. It stopped mattering to them. They knew that the claims made before the elections would again prove to be a delusion. Infact, People just stopped feeling sad and disheartened at the

And the mountains echoed: Khaled Hosseini

I finished reading "And the mountains echoed" by Khaled Hosseini. Let me begin by getting you acquainted with the fact that I am a huge-huge fan of this one author. He is simply remarkable. With his books, I just have no patience to wait and read it leisurely. I mean, be it Kite Runner, be it The thousand splendid suns or be it this latest one, I have finished them all in a span of just 2-3 days! Even I feel astonished and wonder from where do I manage to steal time for his books! I have no idea and genuinely, I have no idea! I just leave everything and surrender myself completely to his books. Man, they have that power, that amazing command over you. The story just engulfs you and something continuously keeps on poking you from inside to know the story ahead. Anyways, back to the review of the book. It is good but only if you do not have the same expectations of Kite Runner from it. I loved the way it started. It began with a bedtime tale being told to two children,

We, women are indeed hard to understand

It is difficult to understand a woman - you must have surely heard men cribbing about this more often. Yes sir, we are hard to understand. The point is we women, ourselves are unable to understand our wiring system, the way our brains and hearts have been structured, why do we do certain things, why do we behave in certain pre defined ways, why are we so unpredictable. We are still on the verge of finding answers to these terrible questions about ourselves. How can you expect yourself to find out the answers? “I'm tough, I'm ambitious, and I know exactly what I want. If that makes me a bitch, okay.” ― Madonna Is it that lately, I have started writing too much about women? May be, I have been dealing with a lot of them these days:) I just love and appreciate our energy, passion, multitasking abilities. We are, no doubt wonderful. But then, I believe there are few things where we really become too hard for people around us to understand. Anyways, this one is completely bas