Paper Planes

Why the world is so damn cruel? Why everyone around looks so mean? Why the hell did I ever get here, Here where there is only hurt and pain Why did I ever allow this heart to beat? Why did I give wings to my feelings? Why the hell did I ever made them free? Cant I rip this heart apart and throw it away? Cant I get rid of these painful feelings? Cant I throw all my emotions somewhere away? And be with me, in peace and serenity What was that I did so wrong? What was that bought me on this trail? Trail, full of pain and hurt... Do I really deserve all this? This awful ache  This unbearable pain...

Finally I am relaxed! Yep, was going through a very stupid phase of life. Actually I should say was going through a torturous phase. I am now, kind of out of it. At times, I feel is it my crazy brain that creates this hallucinations of "bad" phases? or these phases are a reality? I mean why in the world would my 'own' (hope so!) mind create such delusion to torture me? But anything is possible with me... I always describe myself as a very strong person who hates to reveal things going inside her mind, heart and life to the world. I am truly a champion in hiding all the thoughts and emotions behind my cute smile:) But still there are few devils in my life who can see beyond that smile!!! Its both a blessing and a curse. Blessing because I am lucky to have such caring people around me for whom I, my feelings and my emotions really matter. Curse because dude, they kill me/ torture me till the time I don't reveal the complete reason to them! And I hate to tell ...