Tuesday, May 29, 2012

The Wedding Trip That Never Happened!

Everything was normal about that day in feb apart from one thing! I was a bit stressed. For the whole day, I kept mulling over on whether I should go to my friend's wedding or not! Even after coming back home, I was roaming here and there in attempt of getting to the final decision. But this time, my mind simply refused to be on one side and decide: yes or no. Actually I knew somewhere that I did not want to go but then, I had already committed to my friends, to all my colleagues with whom I was supposed to make to this trip. There were many reasons for my unwillingness: 1. My husband was not going with me, 2. I was unable to feel and find that enthusiasm and excitement within me for this trip, which I normally used to have while heading for a trip. I was asking my husband again and again "Shall I go?" "Do you think I should make it to the wedding?" "Don't you think I should be here for the weekend and we both should spend some quality time with each other?" and I was continuously bombarding him with the same question but in different words. May be I was looking out for a particular answer. I wanted him to say "No, you should not go." If he would have said it once, I would have got an excuse for myself and for everybody. But he said, you should go as its going to be a good break for you.

I din't do any packing at night. I din't wanted to! I thought I would decide on going in the morning and slept indecisive. Though sleeping wasn't so easy as I was tossing and turning, my mind was not letting me sleep, it was stressed, it was just not able to decide. And it remained indecisive till I went deep into the well of dreams.

We were 5 people who made this plan of going to our colleague's marriage. There were 2 couples (Rajat and Nidhi, Rushit and Vidya) and me. The men in both the couples were my colleagues.

I woke up at 6 AM next morning, called up Rajat. But I wasn't able to connect to him for a long time. I was roaming here and there in dilemma. I felt like I had never been in such a vague situation ever! Moreover, I was confused about office: Was I to leave for office or was I suppose to wait for somebody's call to declare that we were going! 

Finally I was able to connect to Rushit and he told me that they might not be able to come as Vidya's shopping is still not done!! Now, I felt a strange feeling. I had already ditched my office and now, I get to know this! I was sad but I was also happy somewhere within me because this is what I wanted to hear since last one day. And so, I made up my mind completely about the cancellation of this trip. I smilied and thought that I would enjoy the luxury of being at home for that whole day, watching TV, cooking, cleaning, shopping, sleeping! I felt amazing just by the thought of doing all this!

After escorting my husband for office, I made tea for myself, switched on the TV and just started sipping the tea and enjoying its aroma filling my senses.

After around 15 mins, I got a call from Rajat. He directly asked me about the place where I would be meeting them. I was perplexed. I told him that I thought we were not going as he was not taking the call and moreover, even Rushit was not coming. Rajat said that nothing was like that and we were going. He had already spoken to Rushit and he would join Rajat in next 45 mins. I tried different tactics to cancel this trip but Rajat was adamant and said we would meet at the bridge near my home at 12.15 PM.

I was shattered! I somehow dragged myself to my closet, did all the packing, went to the washroom, got ready. I was trying to boost up my enthusism by again and again reminding myself about the beauty of the place where we were going. It was supposed to be one of the most beautiful places in AP: Rajmundry which was around 400 kms from Hyderabad. We would reach there by tonight, attend the wedding, leave for Papikondalu next morning, would be there for a day and would be back on Sun! I had heard a lot about Papikondalu. It is a hill range in AP whose scenery resembles that of Kashmir in North India. We were supposed to go to a place (which seems to be like a small island) in a boat.

I was reminding myself about the beauty of the place but somehow, I was just not getting success in bringing that excitement within me. Somehow I was not at all happy to go to this one trip. Somehow, my heart was not with my decision of going.

I dragged myself to the bridge where I was supposed to meet Rajat and others. It was already 1.00 PM. And as soon as I got into the car, Rajat told me that they had forgotten the camera at home and so, we would be going back to his place to pick up the same. And we started heading back to his house. After picking up the camera, we all decided to first have lunch and then start for the long journey. By the time, we finished our lunch, it was 3.00. And so, we officially started for journey at 3-3.15 PM which was a little late and we all were aware of this fact. Infact, we were supposed to leave at 9 AM.

Anyways, we all got on to the highway finally. We were screaming, talking, singing, chatting, sleeping. It was a real fun. We spoke about many things: about music, movies, friends, life, parents, office, ghosts etc.

Now finally my spirits were high. Finally I felt the excitement which I was seeking for since last night! Thanks to everybody in the car. They were just an amazing company to be with. I was loving each and every moment. We were laughing, screaming and having fun while on the move! We stopped on the way to a small restaurant to freshen up. And we again started in 15 mins. Now, we started calculating the time when we would be reaching Rajmundry. As we might get late to attend the wedding!

Meanwhile, I got a SMS from one of my colleagues congratulating me for winning "'Star of the month" award! I was full of ecstasy as it was my first award in this new organization. I got busy in telling the same to my husband, my parents, my friends, my sisters and to all those who I know would be happy to know this!

It was around 8 PM when we all were dreaming and talking about reaching the wedding by 10 PM. We all were planning for the next day trip to Papikondalu.

When suddenly, that moment shoved us! We were at a speed of 120 KM, there was no light at all on the highway. We were normally chatting, when Rajat noticed a cycle just in the middle of the road. Rajat started blowing horn and cycle moved to the left side of the road and so, Rajat maintained the speed by thinking that the way was clear and we would bypass the cycle via right side and when we were about to bypass him, the cycle came to the right side, just in front of our car!!! Rajat pressed the breaks and for a moment, nobody knows what happened. In few secs, I realized we had met with an accident, the car was going somewhere, untamed, uncontrollable. I closed my eyes, my mind went blank. All I could see was a kind of blurred black screen with some fizz and some absurd vision. It was a kind of when TV goes off, there are no signals and then, the black and white dots on the screen which makes a weird sound. Yes, I could see that!!! Had my mind refused to be with me at that time of shock? Had my mind gone in some kind of hibernation?

The car toppled and fell in a field which was around 10 feet below the road. The car dragged for about 15-20 feet when finally it got stuck in a tree!!

I was still blank, my eyes were closed when I heard Vidhya's voice calling me. She was over me and Rushit was over her so I was cramped on the side. The car was almost standing at a 90 degree angle. We all gained conscious and became alert when Nidhi said that we all will have to get out of the car immediately as it might get on fire. The visions of the cars getting on fire in different movies started playing in front of my eyes. How scary it looked, and how scary it would be to experience the same!!! Now I became alert, my mind getting to a sudden jerk. We all became restless. We asked Rushit to open the door on his side which was a bit difficult as that door was on the upside. And at the same time, we had to maintain the car's balance so that it doesnt get toppled to the other side again. It was a nightmare come true when we got to know that all the doors and windows have been locked automatically!!! I had only seen such situations in movies! Never knew how absurd, scary and intimidating it can be in real life. Now, I was losing my patience and asked Rushit to break the window if required. He was able to open the window after working hard for 5 mins. We all somehow came out. I was sitting bare feet inside and so I had to jump out the same way, and when I jumped I directly stepped on to the fencing of the field. Rushit jumped on the crushed glass pieces. It was pitch dark and we saw few villagers stopping by. As soon as we all regained ourselves, we just thought of our luggage as by then, a whole crowd of villagers had surrounded us and we did not wanted anybody to flick anything. Vidhya went inside the car somehow again and took out all the things: shoes, phones, cameras, wallets, bags etc. Thanks to her! After we were done with all this, we looked at each others face and just did not know what to say. Our eyes were talking, consoling each other that we all were fine!

We tried to call few of our friends but none of us had signals in our phone!!! But thanks to one network which was still working: Airtel! I always carry 2 nos and airtel was one of them! I called up one of my colleague who was there in the wedding and told him about the whole incident. Everybody was obviously shocked and tensed by now... All of us were standing on the highway with our luggage, unaware of where to go at 10 PM in the night. All the villagers had gone and we all were alone! Now, we all hugged each other and said "Thank God". We all were completely conscious now. We were scarred, terrified with what just happened!

Thanks to the industry we work in. We were able to connect to one of our distributors in the area. Then thanks to the colleague whom we called up, he arranged for a relative of one of his acquaintances. We all were waiting for him on the road side to come and pick us up! I was standing alone and there many different things storming in my head. Was it because of this something somewhere was continuously making an attempt to stop me, was it for this thing my heart was trying to alert me, was it because of this my mind, soul and heart refused to produce that excitement which I was demanding from them?, Was it because of this thing I wanted my husband to stop me for the trip? Was it possible that I somewhere inside knew that something bad was going to happen? My head was pondering over the wind of these weird questions when the man for whom we were waiting came and picked us up. He took us to his farm house which was around 5 kms from the accident place.

Thanks to that one man who helped us so much!! He din't only gave us place to spend the night but also arranged for the dinner and all the required things. Obviously none of us could sleep that night. We were just discussing about the incident, still unable to take it out of our nerves, still not able to believe that we were alive and that too without much casuality. We all just had minor pains here and there which were ok to bear.

But somewhere I was feeling extremely alone because all others had their better halves to hug and console. And so, I was missing my husband. I wanted to be in his arms, I wanted him to tell me that all is fine! For once, I even had a thought to call him and tell about this incident but I stopped myself somehow, as I was not in a position to narrate this whole incident to him. My voice was not steady while talking and that would have given him unbearable tension. I even did not wanted to talk to my parents, my mom would have jumped out of the phone virtually. But then there was so much going on within me. I had to take out all that in front of someone, I really wanted someone to make me feel that I am alive, I wanted to share this terrifying incident with someone!! And in such weird situations, I just have one person to talk to! And so, I called up that one very special, my best(est) friend. He is one person who had always been there for and with me in whatever condition, in whatever situation I needed him. And so, I thought to bug him again (I do that more often). And as usual, he supported me.  He spoke to me till he was sure I was fine and feeling better. I thank God I called him up. I felt so relaxed after talking to him! Felt alive!!

We all woke up at 8 AM next morning and were wondering where we were suppose to be and where we were! Strange...

Our host had arranged for an amazing breakfast. I was wondering why do we always crib that earth was full of bad people. It's not!! There are good and helping people as well on this planet:)

Rajat and Rushit went to see the car with him. We ladies were at the guest house, trying to revive our spirits by gossiping! Its like having tequila shots and getting sloshed! Anyways, Thank God we were smiling.

Rajat and Rushit came at around 4 PM in the evening and told us that the car was in super bad condition and so they have somehow managed to get it to the guest house. There were dents all over the beautiful car... I felt bad...

There was also a strange incident that happened to them at the police station. When they went to lodge the complain, the inspector told him that "Sir, you should have hit that cycle man and should have passed by. Nobody would have ever come to know. Why did you risk everyone's life for that one unknown person."
Then he said "Also when we inspected the place, we found out that you were drunk (none of us were!)" Rajat was dumbstruck!!! Police man said further, if you do not want this case to be declared as drunk and driving one, then plz let us know what you can do!!! Imagine, they were asking for a bribe so openly and that too in such a horrible situation.

They asked for some 12k and somehow, Rajat gave them 5k and got all the required things for insurance.

At 4 PM, we all had lunch and now, there was another decision to make. Shall we leave the same day or the next day! I was adamant that I wanted to leave the same day, I wanted to go home, I wanted to see my family, I wanted someone to hug me!

And so, finally we booked a cab and left for the way back at 5 PM. Wherever the driver was exceeding the speed limit, we all were screaming in one voice at him to slow down!!!

Finally I was home at around 1 AM. I hugged my husband and dint say anything much!! Had an amazing sleep. But for atleast 10 days, whenever I used to close my eyes, all I used to see was the same fuzziness. It was scary! I would never ever want to face any such thing again in my lifetime. Even today, if I think about that moment when my mind said "you met with an accident" and went blank, I get sort of powerful thrust in my body, start getting goose bumps!

Lesson from this whole incident: 1. God give you signals of what is going to happen, learn how to understand them! 2. Life is too short to cry and crib, you never know when you will meet your end (it can be today, tomorrow or after an year or after 50 years) and so, just and just enjoy and cherish each and every moment.

Keep smiling!

Sunday, May 27, 2012

A lesson on fiction

This is an amusing incident which I really want to share.

Few days back, an acquaintance of mine asked me about what all I have read and whats on my reading list... 90% of the books/novels which I named were fiction. This guy asked me if I dont read any "real stuff". Even though I understood his words but then, I pretended to be confused and so just asked him for clarification as in "Whats this new genre called Real Stuff?"... Then he said "Real stuff is non fiction. Dont you read books on knowledge, autobiographies etc". I just did not know how to answer this one:( As I wanted to scream at him but then maintaining my decency I said "Yep, have read a few of them, have read Dev anand's autobiography, wings of fire, The winning way by Harsha Bhogle. These are the ones I love. Tried reading others, but couldnt enjoy them much". I just could'nt get names in this genre beyond the 3 which I mentioned. He gave me a very strange look as if he wanted to say "Oh you are also amongst those dumb people who like fiction". I looked at him and gestured to ask "What?". He then finally spoke his mind out. He said "Dont you think reading fiction is a wastage of time, I mean what do you get to learn from those? Nothing" I was looking at him, giving him an absolute chance to finish. He further added, "You really dont need to put your mind to understand and grasp those dumb stories in fiction! To understand and engrose the real stuff (non fiction), you need brains." I was quiet, listening to this man, who just called me dumb and brainless without declaring it in clear words though! I was just stealing time to give a sensible shape to my thoughts and feelings (of anger offcourse). When he was done, I asked him " Do you watch movies?" He said yes. I further digged, "What kind of movies?" He said, "All sorts but I personally love watching action movies". I got the nerve to press! I smiled and said "You dont watch any real stuff?" Without waiting for him to answer, I continued,"Why do you waste your time in watching something which is just a cooked up story of somebody. You just dont need brains to see and understand them and you just don't learn anything from them. Then why to waste time and energy over them?"

Now, his face turned pale and he was definitely at loss of words. He tried hard to find some answer, but could'nt come up with something smart so he just said "There is a difference between books and movies?. Cutting him in between, I said "Offcourse there is! I am definately not that dumb not to know this huge difference. But there is no difference in my reading a fiction and yours watching a movie! All I meant to say is the way you like watching action movies, I love reading fiction, the common things being, we both pursue our interests without thinking that it might be a wastage of time, without thinking about what are we going to learn from thebook/ movie, without thinking whether its fiction or a true story! I love fiction and that doesnt prove that I am dumb or I do not have brains to understand the stuff in 'real stuff'. Its just that I dont enjoy them much. And so, I have refrained myself to very few books in that category. And also, I just dont believe that you can become Einstein by reading some good knowledgable books. So, I dont force myself to read them. Also, your perception that one do not learn anything from fiction is wrong. You get to learn a lot, a lot from them if you have intentions to do so. They are outcome of beautiful mind and the imagery world of the author. It is very very difficult to give a shape to your thoughts and feelings. You should try once and you will know what I mean to say. Anybody can write about philosophies, about somebody's life. You atleast have a raw story with you around which you just need to knead a web with words to make it interesting. But in fiction, you do not have anything. No story, no base nothing. You have to find a story, fit all the feelings, emotions, thoughts etc in it at right places to make it a beautiful and a lovable story. And plz do not disgrace them by saying that they put in so much effort for a bunch of dumb and brainless readers." That man was silent, without words, just noding his head in agreement! And at the end, I just said "Plz take out that notion from your mind that fiction is not something worthy of giving few hrs to it" And I smiled at him to give him some support to become comfortable again!

Guess I was a bit rude and a bit offensive but sometimes, you really have to give back hard to the conventional  thinking of such orthodox people! I dont know if I was able to change his thinking but I am pretty sure, he will not dare to take out this stupid thinking of his in front of anybody again:)

Keep smiling alwazzzz:)

Saturday, May 26, 2012

BB's addiction: A reality or a myth?

Today I really want to write about one of my fav mobiles - Blackberry! I have been using BB from last 4 years. The phone I am using now is my 4th BB. I had just bought this one a few days back, I was in love with BB till I came across one of my friend's Samsung Galaxy SI one day. And I immediately feel in love with it! The amount of apps (both utility and entertaining) available on android market seems to be never ending! I really regreted of buying a BB without doing a proper research on the phones available in the market! I was so much tempted to own a smart phone that I got a Samsung SI from my next sal:) And is too happy with it. I have kept BB too just for my friends and groups on BBM:)

From last few years, the magic of BB seems to be fading. Once a touchstone seems like to be on the way of being an anachronism! 4-5 years back, BB was one of the most amazing and highly praised mobiles in the market. Infact, owning a BB used to be status symbol. But now, all this seems to be like a myth! Thanks to Iphones and Androids...

BB's market share seems to be decreasing every quarter. In US, Smartphone market share of BB in Q1 2009 was nearly 50% which has come down to around 13.5% in 1st quarter of this year.

Also BB's addiction and obsession seems to be parable now. Acc to a research, only a third of BB's users plan to stick to BB on their next change. Infact BB has seen a degrowth of 75% in their stocks! They had to change their CEO a few weeks back in hope of bringing back the same command and authority in the market!

What could be the reason for it? The easiest explaination would be the entry and popularity of android and Iphones have been resulting in the diminishing market share of BB. But is that so simple? No, if BB would have acted on time, they would have definately been able to sustain their position in the market. But guess, the issue with BB is that they had been living with the perception of being the leader of the business world and probably they thought, nobody could shake them from that position. Infact, BB had launched their first touchscreen much later than Iphone and other touchscreen makers. Also, if you look at all their models, all of them have almost the same look and feel. There is very less difference in all of them! They definately do not have much range and models. And I have no idea why they never thought of launching something different, something new to the market. Their latest model BB bold touchscreen has so much resemblence to BB Bold's ancestor 9000. Could'nt they think of anything unique, anything inimitable?

Also, intially BB had completely restricted themselves to the business world and people working in ITs loved BB because it offered them what they needed the most: security and reliability. BB had their own closed systems and so, there was less chances of any kind of fraud. At that time, BB did not try to reach the ordinary people and when they decided to enter this segment of the market, they were just not aware of ordinary people's needs, their demands and thus, again failing here.

But in this whole havoc, BB was able to safeguard their position a bit. Thanks to their BB curve's new models which definately helped them in saving a bit of their position in this competitive market. Ordinary people who once dreamt of owning a BB now got a chance to have hands on the same. But most of them do not want to continue with BB as their next phone. Second thing which have been saving their position is BBM. But guess Whats app will be able to override the same somewhere soon in future.

Can you believe that BB, which made texting a mainstream practice, which once dominated the smart phone market now have been trying hard to just safeguard their position in market!!!  Once a staple in the business world run the risk of becoming a technological dodo now!

Well its a brave wide world now! Its just not the same for which BB had built itself for...

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

My new impulse and new temptation

My husband often says that I am too impulsive! Initially I used to completely disagree to this declaration of his. But gradually as I started understanding myself, even I started feeling the same:) But rather than taking it as my weakness, I have now made it my strength:). Now, whenever I feel a impulse of doing something, I just go ahead and do it and this has actually given a chance to me to learn, understand and possess new things and I am surely happy about it:) Few results of this impulse of mine are: My few blogs, an angel's tattoo, art of sketching and dancing, and a chocked closet <sob>. If I get caught with a thought of doing or learning something, believe me I start living in a suffocated environment till I finish that thing completely and win over my impulse and after then, I feel relaxed, satisfied and happy:) Later, the challenge which I face is to continue the same interest with these things going forward! But I am sure I will get over it one day:)

Anyways, I have dropped many new things in my bucket list recently:) 1. Having one more tattoo on my feet! 2. Learning to swim! 3. Continuing with my painting lessons 4. Learning classical dance 5. Learning Guitar

Now, the most important one for which I really want to write about! Its something I want to start blogging about. From last few days, I have been going through some Fashion Blogs and believe me, they all are awesome and amazing!!! They all are so tempting! I just loved each one of them. They all are so glamorous, sensational and alluring. Just and just love the way all these girls have been maintaining their fashion blogs! They all are fashion divas!!! Being a fashion junkie myself, I feel like blogging about my thoughts behind my closet:)

Its not that I want to do it because I want to display my closet to the world, but I want to do it for myself. I would love to give a shape to my fashion thoughts in form of words and pictures. I am not somebody who follows any particular kind of fashion (be it seasonal or following somebody), but I just believe that fashion is a balance between comfort, glamour and simplicity.

My fascination for fashion keeps mounting from time to time. I love experimenting with my looks, with my attire, with the combos, with shoes, jewellery and all. I just love it!! When I am in front of my wardrobe, I just forget the world:) Many people, who had a glance at my closet, think its a wastage of money:( But when somebody tells me this, I simply laugh internally and think, thats not wastage, that called possession, my passion and my love for materialistic things! We all are humans after all and thus, we all carry some sort of attachment to some kind of materialistic thing. Don't we? All of us do:) And so, I just feel no shame in confessing that I am a shopaholic and that too an untamed one, but yes, with a high amount of sensibility! I hate to waste money on buying something just for the heck of owning it!!! Its one of the most beautiful and out of the world feeling when you buy something and just cant wait to put it on and flaunt <blink blink> 
Anyways, I have no idea when I am going give this impulse of mine a shape of reality:) But I am happy that at least I have been able to pen down my thoughts on this passion of mine:) Thanks to all the Fashion Divas I have been following.

And yes, people who think that I am crazy, who criticize me for these thoughts and blah blah,  I ought to tell you that its my life, my thoughts and my opinion so you really do not have to waste your time in criticizing me because it really doesn't bother me much:) I am sure, you guys have much better things to do. There is a saying, "Improve your true self before criticizing others". Work on it:P

At last, keep smiling:) and I am keeping my fingers crossed for my new impulse:P

Monday, May 21, 2012

The biggest enemy of Women: Lets Face it, Fight it and Kill it

I wanted to write this post since long but these days, I am so stuck up with the peraphernalia of life that sometimes, I even forget who I am and I wonder what am I doing with life??? And thats majorly because of a change in my office's location which is now, at the other end of the city so my morning activities have got shifted prior by 2 hrs and my evening chores are now 2 hrs behind than before!

Anyways, this is not what I wanted to discuss. The thing which I really want to write about is the one of the biggest health issue which women of today are facing and that is the danger of Breast cancer! After reading this one line, you must be wondering that why am I so exaggerating, there are many other health issues which max women are facing today for eg. arthritis. Yes, thats true but I am sure all those health problems will not be so challenging as Breast Cancer. They will not need the amount of mental and physical strength which a patient of breast cancer need to deal with it. Atleast we all are aware of the causes of many of diseases so there are chances of taking precautions but in the case of breast cancer, there is no defined list of causes so there is no chance of taking any absolute precaution! Now, Isnt that dangerous? Also, the pace with which this dreadful and treacherous disease is grabbing its victims is enormous and is increasing every year! It is definately growing at an alarming rate.
According to the Delhi Cancer Registry data, the number of cancer cases in rural areas is 14.5 per 100,000, whereas in urban areas, it is 26.9 per 100,000.

The major and most common causes (or rather I will say the easiest explaination) for this disease mentioned everywhere are no time for fitness, bad food, increased tobacco and alcohol consumption and lifestyle changes like late marriage, late children and blah blah. But I know somebody who lives in a small town of Rajasthan, whos lifestyle is as simple as it can be. She was married when she was 21, she had children at around 23, she had never ever touched alchohol or ciggrette and yes, nobody does that in her house so there is no chance of being a passive smoker as well, she used to do all her household things, she used to live on 1st floor so she used to move up and down atleast 20 times a day, guess thats an enough amount of exercise!! But then one day, she got little pain in one of her breasts. She went to a dr and he prescribed her the required tests etc. She took the tests and the reports revealed that she had breast cancer! Everybody went into the doom of shock! Even she doesn't have the count of hrs she had shed her tears that day! Nobody including the drs knew the reason of this condition of hers! Strange. In her case, all the mentioned and given causes for BC were contradictory.

But she had to make herself strong as she has 2 small girls who need their mother, she has a home who needs her care, she has a husband who need her now the most when he is moving towards old age... And so she decided to go ahead with the treatment and started going for chemotherapy. She describes that process to be very very painful, hurting and excrutiating but then, she had to bear all that bravely in the hope of getting completely fine and healthy one day.  The cost in terms of money was again huge and was completely unbearable for a middle class family but thanks to few of her relatives who came ahead with help at this point of need. The most dreadful experience of all was when after every chemotherapy session, her hair used to fall like anything! She started seeing bald patches on her scalp and used to actually howl and scream while holding the discarded hair in her palms. This torture, suffering and agony went on for a complete year when Dr finally declared that she was completely out of danger now and she could lead a normal life after that!

Obviously nobody could imagine the extent of ecstacy she and her family was in! On a trip to my native place, I got to meet her in last feb. She looked happy and contented! Infact, she was just not scared of talking about it. She told me parts of her torture, the feelings, the emotions, the physical pain, the mental agony etc, She told me all and also said that she had still not understood the reason of why she got infected from Breast cancer, when she had taken all the precautions all her life to be safe even from small infections. But finally, she was happy she got out rid of it safely. And yes, not to mention her hair had started growing back and denser and blacker this time! The extent of her happiness was so clearly pouring in the form of words from her mouth.

And so was the case with everyone around her.We all were happy to see her happy and smiling again.

But then, just a few days back I got to know that she is suffering from liver cancer! Ahhhh, I just have no words how I felt. The feeling which I faced after hearing about this terrible news was far more worst than any pain!! I just had tears in my eyes and no words on my lips! Why she again? Why she??? She had already suffered so much in life. Why has life selected her again for this test? Will she be brave enough to go through that familier pain again? Will she be brave enough to come out of this suffering again?  I wish God give her all the strength in the world to fight, to fight with this untammed animal called Cancer!!!

All I want to say here is the moment you feel something different, anything peculier within your body, plz DO NOT ignore that. Our body has a tendency to give us indications/ hints when something is wrong with it. Plz do not ignore those. If you feel something strange, big or small, go and see a dr immediately! Plz start living out of that old notion that "I can never suffer from this". Acc to a research, about 4 out of 5 breast cancer patients are at an advanced stage when they come to a hospital which is strange and also, which kills the max chances of getting rid of the cancer.

So ladies Take care and keep smiling always. Also, lets pray from this brave lady about whom I just mentioned. I wish she gets well soon and I really want to see her smiling the next time I see her.

God give her alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll the strength!