Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Being lonely: worst thing that can happen?

Ahhhh… writing after almost a month! Feeling little bad, little guilty and little stupid for not doing something I love doing! But I certainly have logical reasons to defend myself. Anyways, that’s a different story.

The story for which I am back to writing today is that I am home alone! Yeah, my family had gone to Jaipur and I am left here at home all alone by myself. Today is the 3rd day and I feel miserable!

I know it will be so hard for anybody to believe if I tell I haven’t eaten anything in last 2 days. I have just been feeding my stomach with tea and biscuits occasionally. I have been sleeping at 5 am in the morning and that too not because I feel sleepy because my body demands that! I am somebody who loves to talk, and I feel miserable because there is nobody with me to talk! It feels terrible! Believe me! I guess, being lonely is the worst thing that can happen to a person. Its so so hard to eat, sleep, smile, and do anything alone! I hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee it!!!! Just hate it……………. And the worst is when your friends are busy, its makes you feel more terrible…huhhh?
Why is it so? Don’t know but I terribly miss my family…

When it was decided that I wouldn’t be going to Jaipur, frankly I thought its ok, I will get some time to spend with myself… and moreover, I have so many friends that they will never let me feel alone! But I was so so wrong. There is such a big difference between friends and family… If you would have read my previous blogs, you would have known that I am somebody who really believes in friends, in friendship… I love all my friends because I think each one of them have their own contribution in what I am… I am a strong believer of the fact that one cannot live without friends!

But still, what family can do, friends can never do that and guess, its not vice versa…
Anyways, that’s all for now… really cant say and shouldn’t say anything more than this…

Just want my husband to be back!:) and make me smile again! Ahhhhhh… there are more 5 days to go to be alone: F.I.V.E… All i can tell myself for now is Keep smiling!!!:(

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